KAU CAKAP APE TADI?

the time is 2208 ;)

2011-01-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

0whkay, s0 it's the year 2o11 and rase mcm nak delete dah bl0g ni last year tp sbb failure nak sign in, xdapat lah berbuat demikian...anyway, sekarang dah dpt masuk balik...rase sayang lak nak delete...yelah, eventh0 xde ape sgt f0r public purp0se but, this is the place where i l0ok back whenever i think life is getting serious ;)
and s0, i thought myb patut p0st s0mething yg lebih matured after this.....

p/s: seriously rase kene beli dictionary sbb tadi nak eja delete pon jadi deleat...mmaaaallllluuuuu

2010-10-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

dah xda idea nak post ape...nak meluah pon macam dah xda masa...bukan banyak kerja pon, tapi capasity otak nak pikup masih dalam status bersabar...macam2 dah jadi since habis asasi. yang pahit yang manis...yang meloyakan...haih.

tapi lately rase sakit hati...aku dah malas nak gaduh lagi (selama ni aku yang mendengar, kau yang beriya2 cakap) selalu je kau dan kau n kau lagi...sampai aku pon naik lali...

maybe kau rase aku yang salah dalam hal ni...memang lah kan, xde sape yang dalam rationalnye akan salahkan kau...kaulah mangsa suci yang terainaya (ntah aku xreti eja)

orang salu kata ade karma...kau pon nak cakap benda sama...lantak kau la, penat nak dengar...kau je la yang benar. dulu aku nak jugak argue...no way man aku taw pertahankan diri aku...sekarang dah malas nak beradu...nak panggil aku pengecut pon lantak lu...

abg ipar kau pon sibuk nak bertanding dengan aku...i said fuck u...bukan urusan kau...xfaham kenape busy body sampai gitu...

maybe kau xsedar...kau sakitkan hati aku...sedangkan sumpah aku xpernah niat nak wat camtu kat kau...setiap kali kau c0ntect aku mesti ab0ut kau n kau n kau...diva sangat ke kau...nak je aku melenting...tapi xpe, bagi aku bukanye penting...

aku nak menagis tapi empangan xberisi...aku pon malas nak wat drama yang xberbayar...kau sibuk nak jumpe aku, nak bincang kononnye....hey, what's the point? sia2 je ni sume...bukan masalah aku, tapi kau nak attack aku...

yelah kau, kau tu xsalah....aku mintak ampun mintak maap...kau rase pasni ade karma?? suka hati kau lah nak wat camne...nak cite kat orang pon aku xtaw nak start kat mane...ape body nye...ape konklusi nye...kau narrat0r, kaulah mangse...pe kate kau je yang g canang...oh lupa, kau si angel yang terainanya...xmungkin kau akan berkata2 buruk...

kepale hotak kau...aku malas nak gaduh benda2 b0doh (s0rry lah kalau kaw dalam kategori benda bodoh) status kau xpernah puas nak attack aku...bukan mkn cili terase pedas tapi pandang pon dah taw cili tu pedas b0ngok...posting pon aku pikir kaw jgk...pape yang leh wat ko terase aku delete...tapi kau xpernah tau...

dah pasni aku nak pindah kat ulu...xpayah nak tengok muka kaw and kau...baru puas aty aku...oh lupa...kau punya perangai kan sentiasa CANTIK dari aku...sebab tu lah kau yang menang selalu...tapi xtaw lak aku, otak kau same cam batu.

babe!

2010-09-06T09:24:00.000+08:00

happy anniversary syg!
<3 u a lot!

beRhabuk!

2010-09-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

berhabuk tu refer kpd blog aku ni la...
maklum la dah lame x menyinggah...busy kononnye.
padahal idea pon xde, bese la ble sebab untuk menulis dah
meninggalkan kte...(macam slame ni ada specific person)
bukan org la tapi, just benda2 bodo yg apabila bosannye akan
menjadi perbualan/luahan di laman sesawang...bese la org2 muda kalo bosan.
xfaham kah? sorry la, ni bahasa melayu for specific purpose...

rase rindu gila sgt kat cik DAFIKAH yg merupakan sumber inspirasi untuk aku menulis,
kat cik HASMAH yg merupakan trainer aku sewaktu beriadah, cik FATIN (tough) yg xpernah jemu membekalkan 'peralatan2' yg sepatotnye...

k0rg la antare watak2 yg membawa blog aku ke persada batch kte satu ketika dahulu
(actually bdk2 kelas A je yg sudi bace) haih...mmg xdinafikan sume yg kte wat tu
keje2 bodo je tp, benda2 ni gak la yg wat kte enjoy. (xla bodo thp membuang ape yg dilahirkan)

sekarang masing2 pon busy..(busy ke) nak melepak pon kne merentasi pelbagai
...urmmm...what's the word? pelbagai...dugaan la kot. then masing2 pon dah besar..xnak maen game tu lagi...oh, ble fikir balik, mst ade yg akn ckp smakin
besa...post2 mestilah smakin matured. oh tidak, suka hati aku lah nak post ape.
xde la pulak dlm rules n regulation ckp kne tulis benda2 formal or ilmiah ke..(mcm aku bace rules dia)

rite now sepatotnye sdg wat assgment..masuk ayt ke-3 ke-4 mata aku pon dah mcm berat 3 4 tan...so merepek la jap kat sini. nanty ade plak mulot2 longkang yg mgadu kat parents aku yg aku tdo xbwt assgment...asal bunyi keypad ni suadh..hahaha. xfaham aku knp kes perlu panjang2 bagai. gado bnd kecik ni...haih...meleret2 sampai 3 4 tahun...cube berdamai kan sng..haihhh...

bila xada lagi bunyi 'teen'2

2010-07-28T20:24:00.000+08:00

g0sh, rase xcaye je 20tahun tu berlalu dgn cepatnye...i'm old
old enough to get married...gatal!
oh, xpe my science teacher masa sekolah dulu cakap mase umor2
20 n above ni la mase dimana kte2 sume akan terlebih hormon gatal.
but mine macam dah overflow je...haish...
20 20 20 20....xda lagi bunyik belas2 everytime uncle2 n auntie2
yg xdikenali tny. skrg akan jwb i'm 20...oh, masa berlalu tanpaku menyedari..

masa kecik2 dulu xsuka g sekolah. selalu xsabar (xsedar yg b4 yg dewasa 2 jd dewasa kne g sekolah) budak2 la...sume nak simple2. ble ko xsiap homework pon rase takot sgt mcm it's the end of the world. sampaikan ko xnak g sekolah la.

ble ko dah beasr...baru ko taw reality ni xseindah mcm ko tgk dalam tv....dunia2.
ko dah besar baru la ko rase tensionye dunia adult ni...tapi xpe, as we gr0w older we'll learn things we never knew we ever knew...
gitu! huhuhu.....

sekarang rindunye pada everything yg simple n mudah2 belaka tu...degree sgt susah...life sekarang sucks...macam nak meletup! kadang2 rase nak nanges je....
masa kecik2 xyah fikir pasal duit...assignment...
tp xpe life must g0 on kan...xsbr nak abes belajar.

29.5.2012

2010-05-29T07:50:00.000+08:00

dalam bnyk2 tarikh aku takot aku lupa tarikh neh....
dats y nak letak kat bl0g biar ingt...
huhuhu...
2 tah0n from n0w...
aku nak gak tgk sehebat mane ko neh...
xpyh la nak ckp besar kat aku en...
dlm 2 3 ari lg ko bakal lupa ape ko ckp beb...
tp aku ske ngn ko...
sbb ko de confidence level yg tinggi...
ape ko makan ea?
bg r cket...ne taw aku leh gne mase debate
huhu...
aku da la x ske debate
hurmm...ko rase aku jumpe ko lg ke nak bet2 ngn aku untk 2 tahon 2??
tlg r weh...we both know the fact that ko ne mcm mane..
ari neh kate merah, esok kate biru...lusa warne laen lak
org kate some girls tukar b0yfriend cam tuka baju
nak ckp kerap la tu
tp tuka baju generaly sehari sekali
x la often mane
ade lak kate cam tukar tisu
eleh, tuka tisu mase nanges je
xde r kerap mane en?
hahahaha
tp untk ko aku rase special cket
ko tuka pempuan same cam mandi...
ko ayt pempuan same mcm ko wat normal conversation
as if xde pape...
normal in terms of ko ckp org dgr
dlm ko nye hal lak...
ko ckp, org sangkot, trima
at the end pe jadi...
hahahaha....
ko neh baek senanye...
dats y r aku ske je kwn ngn ko...
kan?
well, aku xsaba nak tunggu 2 tahon
kte tgk at last sape yg betol..
bak kate ko 'setiap benda ade yang first time'
but i'll sh0w u that this isn't my first time of being right
till then, kte wait n see.
kalo ko menang pon kre aku da set kan rek0d plg lame untk ko
but sygnye aku xde duit peruntukan untk beli tisu
s0, aku xkan kalah pada ko beb.
wait n see..

dulu ko cakap...

2010-04-20T09:06:00.000+08:00

dulu ko cakap 'jgn benci....lame2 ko syg baru susah'
aku cakap 'eleh, xde maknenye do da benci, benci je r' haaaaa...
ko cakap lagi...'jgn benci, nanty syg baru taw'
aku lak cakap 'urm...yela2 suke aty ko la nak cakap pe'
then ko cakap lagi...
aku lak...terdiam trus. maybe da xtaw nak cakap pe dah...hurm...
pas aku fikir lame2 aku pon cakap 'maybe betol lak ko ckp, wlpon aku xnak ngaku...tapi mcm dah syg lak. mcm k mcm'
ko pon mula la perli2 and merepek sume...
ntah la aku pon xtaw...
aduiyai, ko pon kate 'baru bape lame amy'
aku kate 'apesal tah ko ni, aku ckp maybe k, maybe je'
hahahaha...akward gle ble cakap ngn dye 2...

tibe2 ble ko rase terlebeh bertenang

2010-03-18T14:45:00.000+08:00

huhu...esok final final paper...disebabkan terlalu banyak menongeng menghadap notes2 exam (walaupon xde yg complete) bahasa pon dah tunggang langgang. tapi selame nih pon same je. semasa menaip post ini, dada terasa sangat la lapang bak tiada exam plak esok...kicauan burung yang pagi tadi aku xdapat dengar sebab nervous sgt, kini dapat didengari. carry mark global yang masih lagi tidak diketahui hanya tinggal dalam plotak yang dah berserabot nih.

kelibat dafi mundar-mandir dalam bilik ni sambil nyanyi lagu ape tah dapat aku tgk through skrin laptop ni. dye da ready2 kemas beg dengan hati yang berbunga. beg aku lak belom kemas...kalo malam2 sebelom ni aku menongeng menyembah bumi disebabkan bajet nak bace notes2 exam, malam ni bakal menongeng sebab kne kemas beg b4 parents sampai nak pickup aku. tibe2 rase nak hang out lame cket kat kedah ni. walaupon bilik aku sgt panas ibarat sauna, walaupon kadang2 aku komplen bilik sgt panas mcm berkelumang dengan dosa2 kitorang, 'tetapi' rase sayang lak nak tinggalkan.

macam pompuan yang kne tinggalkan ngn sisowami, macam tu la bilik kitorang. walaupon xsempurna di mata korg, walaupon sakit aty memandang tapi ni la bilik tempat aku belajar erti kehidupan kat kedah ni. cewah! tempat aku n dafi (yg dahulunya disertai ngn fazilah n nora) bergurau senda beramah mesra n mencurahkan perasaan. huhuhu.

sabto0 ni merupakan hari last aku kat bilik ni (hopefully xkan datang balik r kan) tadi mase kat libry jumpe mdm ******** she said, i'll see u around next sem. nak gugur lak buah pingang aku dgr. jgn mcm ni mdm, jumpe means repeat. xnak2. biar la yg dah berlalu tu berlalu je madam...s0bs2.

ntah la aku pon xtaw

2010-02-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

lately ni cam gedik je cket2 nak marah. huhu. kalo aku masuk contact sports ni mst superb je peformance cuz pnohnye aty aku ngn perasaan mrh, benci, meluat, hasad dengki and etc. xtaw la ape je masalah aku, dah r nak abes sem, nak enjoy pon susa. knp la benda2 ni mesti jadi kat aku tyme2 nih?? dah r result test cam tah pape je. lame2 naek menyampah aku ngn sume benda. aku xske, aku xske, aku xske.....nak mencarot pon ntah la, dah xde aty nak mencarot. at last aku jgk yg sakit mulot mencarot.

so, memandangkan aku blum lg ade azam tahon baru ni ade beberape pekare nak dipertimbangkan:

1) nak jadi hard-core bitch yg aty dye sejuk sgt3

2)xnak fall in love sbb love tu melemahkan org je. knp tah ade certain org hadap sgt ngn menda nih?

3)nak jadi pempuan yg pentingkan keje b4 anything else.

ntok pgetahuan korg aku ni bukan la frust berchenta ke ape, berchenta pon x so nak frust ape nye. juz da puas syg org, letak org len b4 aku at last aku gak yg sakit aty cam babi. cam org len jgk, aku pon hope sgt2 pkare ni tercapai. wink~

it'z just plain talk

2010-02-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

bare in minds that i am me and as much as you guyz need to know, i'm not the family type of girl. i don't like to hang out with people i don't like or do things you know, together. not much into that. so i don't know is it the world that is complicate or is it just me? but, trust me, i'm not into finding it out too. look, this page is mine. and as far as i am concern, whatever i wrote here is just talk that i don't know who to express to. so, if you're not interested in reading or you think it is so0 lame that it bored you to death, then just get lost.

there are people who commented on others blog, as i've read. this person said that bloggers these days are not, i don't remember the term but sort of you know, not good in writting, the materials are not educating. oh, shut up! this is a free space and we do have freedom of speech as long as it doesn't interfere with any of the national security system or thingie! well some people are not lucky to have their cape crusader around to protect them, be their shoulder to cry on or catch them when they fall. some of us don't have any. i think to publish what you feel is kinda a great way to deal with what you feel. so people, ignore those who think that they owned the place and act like a bunch of bloody hell professionals despite that they too, are only crawling amateurs.

last night i ate a lot. what i meant is really, really a lots of food. i don't know whether it's true for everyone but, chocolate indeed a solace for my heart break. i have to be broken. but i love chocolate. so there's just chocolate and me. well at least i got really stuffed i easily falls asleep. but, it's not fair. i mean, i'm a human. and sometimes, i just need someone to lean on. i couldn't always depends on choc to mend me. i don't want to be diabetic. i guess i don't even know what type of person i am.

it's 2010 people, and i have a bad luck calls! sigh~

2010-01-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

i don't know what would be worst, starting your year with kinda happy-fun-loving time and at the end you found out that there is no such thing as happily ever after or starting the year with massive bad luck and still counting! what have i done??? it's like suddenly all my lucks just dissapear, vanished, poof into thin air and....i don't know what else. it's bad and too bad it's getting worse!

i don't know either i should cry or what. seems like every time i was hit, these things catches me off-guard ha-ha-ha very sweet ='(

with no back-ups, and i'm not sure i am into crying business again (cause everytime i did, i'll have this super-stupid migrain hitting me like it is going to be the one and only time so the pain should be shooting all at the same time)

last time this one person hit me with a huge wave of humiliation, and i don't think i can cover it up even by having a plastic surgery! why does people have to do this? i mean, i'm not into picking up a fight or anything.

and guess what? i have this big-time news that had blown my head off....and its stuck in my brain like a super-huge stone that can only be removed for another....let say...10 to 20 years?

i keep on getting this dreams that i super-hate-it, and it's messing with my sleeps.....why can't you just get lost? and.....and i don't know what else!

i'm 20, and i don't think life start at 20, the challenge does! and whilst i'm writting this, something bad just happened. screw it!

oh yeah, i haven't list any of my 'azam tahun baru' of course i have some in mind, but i don't think i'll make it all into the list. i'm only to pick some really good ones.

i thought i was right, but i was wrong...

2009-12-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

this week rasenye minggu yg meletihkan stakat nih....xtaw la ape je yg aku wat. hurmmm...

i used to think that i am tough, tp baru2 ni baru aku sedar yg aku ni lemah senanye...hiding behind a breakable mask. mcm konon2 sgt tabah la tp cengeng.

sume org ade ujian dlm hidup msg2 so, aku pon xlari darinye. of course degree untuk all the test is different. xkan aku nak expect same lak...

tp tu la, kdg xsalah breakdown kalo xtahan, kte manusia, lemah. dulu kecik2 aku g skola salu je org ejek. org ske ejek mak. aku ngadu kat mak, mak kate xpe, nanty dorg yg dpt balasan pandai2 la nak handle. 2 la 1st and last time aku ngadu. since then, aku take care je sume bdk2 sial yg mulot cam da lame sgt idop tu. pdn mke, sorg2 aku kejekan. ape ngt aku takot la ngn korg.

aku pnh watpe tah sampai bdk tu luke2 pnggl ayah dye tunggu dpn skola nak sound aku. alahai, laki kot ko tu, xcam anak jantan lnsg tuka je la jd pondan. pondan pon tough lg dari ko.

since then gak kalo lalu mane2 jalan yg creepy ke, kne kacau ke aku xgtaw mak. kne kejar ngn budak2 jahat sampai aku kne menyorok kat skola pon, aku xgtaw mak. bajet aku da ckup kuat la nak protect diri sendiri. bajet cam aku anak jantan la.

lately ade org dah bukak mate aku, tunjuk kat aku yg aku ni senanye lemah sgt. aku ni pura2 je tough. aku ngt aku sgt faham diri sndiri tp, upenye xpon.

kdg2 kte fikir kte rase kte sgt mgenali smone, tapi hakikatnye, kte xtaw pon about org tu.

people said that, when u get up after u fall, u'll be stronger. aku xtaw la sejauh mane benda ni betul. tapi tu la org cakap. ntah la, aku rase aku makin lemah ade la, and seriously aku xtaw la aku bangun balik x senanye.

lately aku moody, aku taw tu. sem 3 ni cam aku moody gle. cepat marah, cepat terase, cepat retaliate, and macam2 lagi la. so, kepade org2 yg terkena tempias mood aku tu, sori la.

senanye aku da try my best to be perfect for smone, tp maybe aku hanye cuba. bukan do my best. aku try maintain diri aku at the same time try la nak improve cket2 tp maybe tu la salah aku. aku hanye 'try'. aku xckup bgus untk dye.

senanye aku xknl diri aku sendiri, aku xtaw who i suppose to be. what i want to be...pelik, umo da 9teen tp xtaw lg.

people said that, it takes you to loose something to realize what you had. aku taw tu. tapi camne if it's too late to realise? and if kte da xle ubah pon, or even fix the smallest part of it? yg tu aku xtaw. aku just harap aku xkan pernah terlambat lagi pasni, untuk sedar.

maybe untuk certain people aku ni annoying sgt, aku taw tu. tapi aku xkan dapat puaskan sume org better aku puaskan org yg hargai aku, yg syg aku, diri aku and mereka yang aku syg. so kepade haters, the best way is aku xyah layan. nanty aku skt aky and of course la ko pon bakal sakit aty ngn aku sbb aku melawan.

aku xperlu la ade beribu2 kawan pon...or berjuta, beratus perhaps. biar r walaupun cket, asalkan dorg wat aku bhgie ngn dorg. aku xkesa nak nges skali ngn org tu kalo dye sedih (aku sgt kaye ngn air mata taw) thus, plz god, make me see what i really have righ now, open my eyes so that i'll know, make me love them as much as they can ever love me or even more cause i don't want it to be too late for me. plz make them stay.

BAD ROMANCE =p

2009-12-19T09:00:00.000+08:00

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo shtick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby! )
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

sgt sexy lagu neyh!
mood: bad rumen =p

but i love this blueberry pie ^^,

2009-12-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

boring washed over me as time passed...i hate to be hated nor i wanted to be the world for other for a day and i am doomed myself the other...

sigh*

i googled something and found out some interesting line....

here it goes...(my blueberry night)

jeremy: i like this pies and cakes, at the end of every night the cheesecake and apple pie are completely gone. the peach cobbler and chocolate mouses cake are nearly finished....but there's a whole blueberry pie left untouched.

elizabeth: so what's wrong with the blueberry pie?

jeremy: there's nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. Just...people makes other choices. You can't blame the blueberry pie, just...no one wants it.

pity that pie...but hopefully there'll be a person who is a bleuberry pies addict will come over and eat the whole pie like he/she never ever ate such a delicious pie and that person will keep on loving this blueberry pie for as long as lives take them, and that this person will never say such a thing about not wanting this pie anymore ^^,

because this blueberry pie is just a pie, baked to be eaten and admired....not to be wasted. but some people work for this pie, gain it, and decide that he/she changed their mind and left this pie wasted. perhaps this pie should never exist, so that no one can ever waste it like it means nothing.

but amy loves this pie soo much she'll never let anyone have it. because i love this blueberry pie.

s.o.l.a.c.e for HB

2009-12-16T02:22:00.000+08:00

da kol bape nih...esok bersepah lak kelas ganti...draft xsiap lg...xsentoh pon...esok kne anta...adoooiiii.....

xpe2 ade bape jam lg tapi pale aku dah ketat tahap sial lak...

sume org leh tdo....jeles lak aku....

pdn mke wat last minute lg....

tp farha kate xpe, amelia kental....bongok farha perli2 aku lak....

ape je mksud title tu...hahaha. biar je la aku yg taw. but maybe untuk org2 yg knl aku leh kot pickup wink*

td dlm kelas haq interview farha sal nape la farha anti-lelaki sgt...hahaha, thus, aku dgn bek atynye jd P.A farha la, cakap bg pihaknye....

ala....kdg2 aku rase xfair gak nak blame one party, cuz ade je pempuan yg wat hal....contohnye aku, ye r aku en jahat bak kate sape tah aku ni di banding2 kan ngn org tu...org tu baek, aku lak cam setan....keeeessssaaaahhhh lak aku!

so dgn murah aty nye aku pon cakap la ayt ni 'if you can't love someone don't make that person fall in love with you' ayat aku mse tu panjang r tapi. ni da paraphrase....wink*

geli kot aku nak cakap sal2 love ni??? tp demi farha aku sanggup je...hahaha. besides, i'm just a teenage gurl wanting to be wanted...tough camne pon ade soft-spot gak...

eyyyhhh...bkn aku, farha. =p

so thus the story goes,

and my heart isn't a toy,

this feeling wasn't a game,

this person is real,

and how she miss the ice queen,

feeling soo damn stupid,

because she left it all,

for a boy who change his mind,

how stupid she was,

and she still is,

if it is fate and karma,

what was left to say,

was never meant to be said.

ni bukan aku yg tulis, ni explaination je dari reliable source wink*

ok la xtaw pe je aku meracau nih nyte!

¡si usted nunca pensara amarme entonces nunca me hacen amarle ... estúpido! ¡le odio como ello nunca va alguna vez a cambiarse! sólo sea perdidos y ¡vete a tomar por culo!

xpayah susa2 nak paham ni bahase spain lak. saje nak luahkan yg ade sekarang.

if only....

2009-12-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

if only i am given the chance to choose something in exchange oof something...my answer would be my heart...cause i dont want to fall in love. not that i was something seriously stupid or the fact that i was hurt but it just that i think love make us weak.

wedding =p

2009-12-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

haaaa, tgk topic ni cam gatal je kan?? hahaha. x lah...ni sume gara2 gadoh sal tajuk forum kitorg tadi.....

fatin:cepat lla weyh nak tajuk ape....haaa, aku taw. tiap org ckp pasal sports.

farha: mmg fatin mmg aku taw sgt nak ckp ape (satu2 nye sports yg farha mahir ialah sukan gadoh mulot)

amel:aku xrety la kalo ko nak ckp sal football, aku taw basketball n f1 je (poyo pdahal xde la banyak mane)

umi:abes aku lg xtaw...

fatin: umi cakap sal kuda....hahahaha. kabir ambak...(sengal fatin nih)

amel:cari laen la...

fatin: ape ko nak??

amel: sexism?

fatin: ape 2....(wat2 lampy lak)

farha: eeyyy000...asek tu je

amel:lies? does it necessary?? amacam??

fatin: lagi2..

amel: prostitution ni comey je

farha: tu kan dah wat sem lepas yg ko jd pelacur tu...

amel: ble mase lak aku jd prostitute ni??

farha: tajuk abortion lah..ko jd pelacur mse tu...

amel: knp aku jd pelacur??? cte la...

umi: weh, ape korg wat senanye nih...

fatin: weh, sengal betul....cepat la pilih topic...

amel: haaa...wedding!

fatin: haaaaa...style2

jd, di sini lah titik mulanye hajat nak kawen.....hahahahaha. mcm la indah sgt. ktorg wat forum sal wedding consultant and events. then, tbe2 nak tukar cte2 daripd lawyer ke wedding planner lak...gatal2, mmg mcm lalang. kejap nak jadi mermaid la, power rangers la, suri rumah la....surian syah la...ups! bukan2. hahaha...

ktorg pon google la mcm2 gambar2 yg related ngn topic kitorg ni....c0mey2 belaka. tu yg mula berangan nak kawen tu akhirnye aku wat keputusan nak kawen (bongok betol dye nih). then rase nak anta msg kat ayh yg berbunyi camni "ayah, kak long rase nak tuka kos la. nak jd wedding consultant and events" rase2 ayah aku bakal bangge x?? hahaha.

2nd wave!!!!

2009-12-03T18:07:00.000+08:00

typical ***-***....actually, aku dlm position yg xtaw perlu ke tak nak post benda ni. fhm2 je la, skrg ni bersepah je kanak2 'terlebih pandai' yg ble da dapat bce nanty mula la nak complain 2 complain ni...xsuda2 nak complain kan. (maklum la jgk keje kos ni mmg nak berdebat je)

but, righ now i don't give a sh** about what are they g0nna bring up. smlm (aku assume korg taw ble and agenda ape mse 2) rase nak vomit je cause mrh sgt3. badan aku dah menggeletar, heart beat da increase so, aku xpost pape smlm. (nanty ade jgk org complain post aku ni full of harsh words lg)

1st thing yg nak aku luahkan, my advice - adikkkkk, kalo rase diri tu hebat sgt debat, fine, g join debat club get active and prove to everyone that u are worth it. fhm??? ni kalo rase2 nak buang mse aku dgr ko membebel bout small matter, baek xpyh.

2ndly: adiiikkkkkkk, dalam kelas td0 ke????? pnh blaja x kalo nak raise an argument, make sure it's a good one (good in terms of it stays within the topic). ni x, kejap2 issue ni. jap lagi kate issue tu. adoooiiiii....

3rd one is, addiiiiiikkkkkkkkk, kalow tgh2 chaos bout selesema babbbiiii, nak ke kte bersuka-ria xngat dunia nak wat mcm2 actvty??? nak sgt kne selesema babbbiiii 2, g je infected country ok??? sng je carenye tu.

4th thing is, addiiiikkkkkkkk, ble dah tanye soalan tu, bukak la lubang telinga ko tu sebesar yg possible, and dengar la explaination yg org nak bagi. jangan pastu xfhm2 lg and keep on asking the same things ok? hormat la org yg tgh bercakap, kalo adik yg sedang bercakap mse tu pon mesti cam nak meletop ble tgk ade la kanak2 yg xfhm2 bahase, memekak cam la kte in a middle of a party. sini bkn zouk ok???

lastly, kpde org yg cakap 'fuck tradition' 2, xkre la ble, smlm ke (ade je org yg jerit prkataan tu), pas induction ke, xkre la. ko ni nak kate xblaja, elok je ko msuk U ni which means ko blaja la kan. tapi, bleh plak cakap camtu tgh2 majlis rasmi. amazing dunia ni, xtaw la ko leh jadi educated but stupid at the same time. kalo xnak datang, xpayah datang. end of story. xpyh la nak fuck2 ni. da kawen nanty fuck la puas2 ok?

p/s: sedar la diri kte ni cket. x hebat mane pon kte sume ni. baru je p** belom degree lg. yg fast track tu lg bersepah je thp intelligence yg superb. wat malu name corse je. sedar plak yg kte ni minority, tp nak gak gadoh2 sesame sndiri. ikotkan aku, peduli pon x kalo ko xnak b'kejesame ngn aku. ingat aku hadap sgt ke nak berbaek2 ngan ko?

him =p

2009-11-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

huhuhu...ntah la nape tetibe nak cari dye...

maybe pnh wat salah kat dye kot dlu...

11 years ag0...

aku pnh bantai bdk ni...

cean dye!

s00oooriii.....

aku tak taw pe aku pk mse tu...

xngat pon =p

bt skrg dh beso ko ye...

ensem plak...

xpe la, mmndgkan ko jaoh, maybe...

maybe aku xde la dpt blasah ko lg...

hahahaha...

cute, handsome, cool, 'the moment'

2009-09-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

hahaha, thank to wina and fatin i got the idea to write this post =p

okay, lets define handsome?
suggastion people....urmmmm...good looking i assume?
good looking is okay.

cute?
adorable perhaps..?? accepted!

cool?
i don't know....what do you think?
calm-looking...?
possible.

but there's another definition by fatin and wina.
THE MOMENT!!!!
hahahah, sorry gurlz, i think its something exciting to be shared

according to them, the moment is when you look at a guy and there are certain time when you see him as hot, extremely cute and even breathtaking \(^^,)/
its not always though...
huhuhu...

you know, this post reminds me of the story of little varya
we don't love some because they are beautiful, they look beautiful because we love them
applies everywhere people huhuhu.

so to fany fany fatin tiffany, eventhouh farha said woo young looks like **** **** sayur, it doesn't even matter rite?
=p
sorry...

and to you pakcik =) you'll always look sweet to me. even without a bag of chocolate
wink~

peah yang tag

2009-09-08T08:05:00.001+08:00

Apakah nama blog anda sekarang dan kenapa anda memilih nama itu?

originally milly's

because right now, ape yang saye tulis originate dari my heart.....like mostly la. not all, nanty makcik farha cakap jiwang plak.

Apakah link blog anda sekarang dan bagaimana boleh timbul idea untuk menamakannya seperti itu?

ea-milly.blogspot.com

sbb my name is amelia so, emily tu singkatan je. simple kan?

Apakah method penulisan dalam blog anda?

what do u mean by method? vagueness ni. hahaha, dulu cam maen tulis ikot feeling, nak marah pun marah je but now, kne control cket la like xleh la nak marah je cause nanty benda laen lak jadi. nak emo2 pon xle sgt. nanty macik farha cakap jiwang lagi.

Pernah terasa nak hapuskan blog anda?

nope, it's a part of me no matter how boring you think it is. hahaha.

Apakah pendapat anda mengenai blog kepada pemilik blog yang TAG anda ini?

rahsia =p i miss her for sure

Senaraikan 10 orang yang akan anda tag.

bleh x just list down xde link???

ikhwan, luq, dafikah, abila, has, nazrul, dee comey, viena, bella ali luna, pipe.

exhausted

2009-09-08T07:36:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of drama,
something i've never asked for,
i'm tired of looking at the mirror,
and searching for the girl beneath the reflection,
only to find out that she wasn't there,
i'm tired of trying to fit in,
when all the while i always knew,
this is not where i belong,
this isn't me,
wasn't even what i fight for,
i'm tired of figuring out,
who i am,
who i was,
what i want,
i hate everything,
i hate being sick,
being sick of looking up at me,
to gamble the life between,
inside me and outside,
i hate to not know,
what best and what not,
being unable to be me,
being hiding,
i'm scared of trying,
to be open up,
to be unfold,
yet somehow that's what i've been dreaming of,
i hate to not know,
what tale to tell,
what lies will be the perfect cover up,
i hate feeling stupid,
i hate to be ripped,
i'm tired of being bitch,
only to realized that i am,
i'm tired of being sorry,
for not feeling so,
there's a point in my life,
where i just hate everything,
and most of all,
i hate for not being done with hating.

gambLe...!

2009-09-01T09:39:00.000+08:00

oh my, right now aku kat libry searching for any information yang leh tlg aku mse presentation nanty. arggghhhhh...! aku ngntok gle ni. bce law xmasuk2 jgk, perhaps kne rebus kot buku law tu. then malam nanty ade test. canteeekkk! memang gamble mse depan r jwb nanty (T.T)

communication

2009-08-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

p/s= ko salu complain xde gmbr ko en? yang kiri tu Farha.

hurrrmmmm....taw kan pe mksud communication??? ok, now i would like to explain it in the angle of resolving conflict.

communication means, stating our view on thoughts or whatever hidden beneath your skin in order to clarify thing with other. senanye ikot kamus ni bkn la explaination yang betol2 direct. ni dari my point of view je.

ok back to the main idea. senanye nak cerita, ari tu Farha (ROSE) merajuk ngan aku and Fatin. thats why la aku tulis blog nih. nak g taw care2 nak resolve kan conflict. ok??

normally farha tak merajuk lebih dari 8 minit. tu record paling lame la dye pernah bertahan but that day (ari kames i think) dye start tak nak cakap ngan kitorang (aku and Fatin)

lame tu. ari jumaat pon xnak cakap lagi nih. conflict jadi lagi susah sebab kitorang satu group untuk presentation law and also forum for critical thinking. haaa....ari jumaat tu Fatin decided to have a discussion la kan. kul 3 ptg (mase itu penting ho3)

pas tunggu beberape minit, yang datang bilik tu umi je. kitorg tanye la mane Farha? then timbul la assumtion yang pujukan semalam xberhasil, means dye still marah ngan kitorg lagi. first thing aku wat is hantar msg kat farha. haaaa...tu langkah 1st ke arah resolving conflict.

"ko kalo rase nak jadi *********** xnak group forum ngan kitorg, xpyh datang"

bunyi cam kasar en? tapi berjaya la tambat aty Farha. xlame pas tu dye pon datang. ok, sampai je, kitorg pn memulakan sesi ice-breaking conflict b4 continue wat forum. huhu, nak keje bersame2 kne la ade keserasian jgk kn?? ok la Farha, jgn mrajuk lagi k? pnt berbincang, 1 jam taw x kte communicate tu?

at least berhasil gak la, daripade xbaek lansung kan?? matured la jgk ko nih Farha. sebab tu kitorg saaaaayyyyaaaaannnngggggg sgt3! ngn ko. ok???

www.apetahsecretnye.com

2009-08-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

=p
huhuhu...churmeyl x tajok blog nih..?? haaaa...ni konon2 nye, laman web untuk rancangan kitorg (amelia, farha, umi and fatin) yg bakal di hoskan oleyh madn0or \(^^)/ hahaha.

konon2 je taw...tgk la kalow jadi celebrity nanty (salah sorg le) maybe akan diterbitkan show ni....menerusi ramalan kitorg, farha yang bakal berahkir sebagai bintang nanty. cewah! sori farha....haaa...tu salah satu secret yang kitorg nak bgtaw. farha bakal jadi bintang denagn name komersial 'ROSE'.

haaaa....nak taw ke rahsia name tu..?? name tu diberi sempena kekurusan farha yang mengatasi kami bertiga. okey?? so kurus amek bunyi belakang jadi ROSE. okey?? name komersial kitorg bertiga plak bakal didedahkan dalam issue yang akan datang...

back to history...show ni dibawah naungan NBA production taw! ke bintang!!!

think that you are being test with hard times?

2009-08-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

have you ever wonder what it feels like not being able to pursue your dream just because something is on your way...?? perhaps something you never ever wished for? imagine that you have a mountain of dreams and you are sick. you can't make it come true but the fact is you want it so much that you'll die for it? some people may assume that it is a part of life where obstacles always exist. we must fight for it. okay, assume i had accepted the fact. what about if you are not sick, perhaps one of your beloved ones are and you'll have to sacrifice your dream for them?

never did i ever wish to be part of the test but life itself made me. looking at the condition of our surrounding these days,where the h1n1 virus are spreading hell and lots of people are falling sick some of them are as if ..... okay, accept the fact that some are sick, i understand the concern that everyone have for themselves. it is true that you have to be careful of everything. but somehow, you just have to be a bit strong. okay, h1n1 leads to death. if you are +ve with the disease. but could you at least check with any sources what the possibilities are there for you to be infected with it? similarities of the victims?

what makes you get even more sick than before is that your mentality are saying so. having fever doesn't always mean that you have h1n1. get conformation is good. never let it affect others life not even yours. prevention is always better than curing. learn to live the hard path because the sun doesn't always shine neither do your lucky star. sooner or later you'll met your obstacle. what are you going to do with it? running from it? accept your lost?

everyone love attention. but please, don't seek it through sickness. it wasn't something fun to live with. put yourself in the shoes of those suffering from a long-term diseases. having to know the fact that you'll be living with if throughout your lives until god knows when. if so these people would prefer to give up, we won't be having people with incurable diseases walking around you. why haven't they given up their lives? want to know why? they can't afford to do so. living with weaknesses and things, even up to the things that you yourself are unable to think how life might be without it, makes them the superior race, even though you have everything. even though you are leading the live that they'll trade anything they have for.

i believe they are the true heroes. only god knows how hard it is to live this kind of life. so please, never ever wish to be sick just because you want to have mc or whatever the reason is. it wasn't something that i would do.

the name is AMELIA

2009-08-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

fyi please note that i was born with the name AMELIA and as much as other person do, i prefer to be called by my own name...you may shorten it, but not change it. tq. and i don't have any connection to the pengarah campus uitm. don't relate me by any means with her. that's final.

down the memory lane

2009-08-07T12:01:00.000+08:00

from the life in kmpk.....

to the life in uitm

hottie alert!! p/s: credit to fatin =p

ma gurlzz.... sisters and loving them 'lalat'..??

samMy =p

2009-08-03T14:16:00.000+08:00

haaaa...bkn nak cakap bout sami k..??

sesaje buhsan2 duk libry nih pas wat validation course hurmmm.....

kunun2 this week ni xde la nak buang2 mase en, on9 pon da jarang, bukan pe actually malas nak bkak tnet (p/s- kan kne gne banyak tenaga tu...nanty hilang la lemak2 nih....hahaha)

but smlm, dat is sunday kan suparnatural back on track...haaaaa, aku da mmg xtahan godaan tv yg memanggil2 tu. tapii....xnak la tgk s0rg2. xske tgk rmai2 jgk (banyak s0ngeh) s0, ajak la huda, tp huda takot. dye sur0 ajak pija.

mse tgh2 watch smallville, tetibe blackout level bwh skali...ups! my bad...sorryyy...da la aku xtaw which one nak tendang balik. naseb ade sm0ne tlg.

senanye ade 1 je motif aku wat blog nih. nak ckp i miss u guyz. dean ngn sam la. huhu. tp titlenye sam cuz i prefer sam =p

pst.....bukan sam amek law ke..?? haha, yg mse firsrt episode dlu ade cakap en..??

anyway, last2 tgk tv sampai 2 jam. balik bilik watch movie kat laptop dafi.

huh, memule tanak. tapi disturbing gila gelak tawa kanak2 bilik nih. s0, aku pon terjebak same (ni contoh xrety ngaku kesalahan sendiri =p)

merb0k homecoming =p

2009-08-01T11:20:00.000+08:00

hahaha....cam chumey plak tajoknye tu =p xdapat jadi homecoming queen untuk prom kat skola dulu (skola aku ade prom ke..?? poyo je cakap) merbok pon cukup la. huhuhu. naek bus las nite kul 12 ngan dafi. hurm....sweater tertinggal kat kolej (T.T) duduk bwh air-cond sejoknyer...huhu, mse ni la aku rnd0ooo sgt2 kehangatan kat kedah. salunye complain jek. yela, manusia memang ade je bende yang xkne. sejuk sgt xleh. panas sgt xleh. tu xleh, ni xleh. bla bla bla....aku ngan dafi dah mcm ape tah. maybe pundi kencing kitowg mse tu pon da separuh beku agaknye...gle mcm menyedihkan. then ade la couple dalam bas nih, dafi ckp tgk dowg mcm lepak je xsejuk. hahaha...dorg tu ade each other aka kehangatan chenta yang wat mereka bertahan. poyo je plak. huhu...da sampai sp bwu la lega cket. ktowg td0 dalam teksi pacik amir 2nggu...2nggu sape ea dafi..?? haaa....yang tu kte xtaw!

anyway, ari tu balik awal ke KL lepak je lengang sebab bajet nak balik kedah awal...assigment sume tinggal. cantik je planning pastu xleh...waaaaaa.....nak botak aku dengar brite tutup 1 week cuz h1n1 tu....memang balik nih kne ber0men ngan assgment laaaaaa....!!

ruuuumen wif assgment ;p

s0mething s0meone s0mewhere

2009-07-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

huhuhu, perhaps you would think that i'll be blabbering about body posture..?? it's just a guess. but nope. it's just me, feeling bored and i'm trying to get my head to work right now. so, while surfing, i listen to this song from enrique and ciara called 'taking back my love' hu3.

funny, there is one person from my school that i used to thik he's sorta the mixed of corey sevier and enrique iglesias. hu3...i'm not sure i got it right cause it's been a while that i haven't seen him. his smile mimic corey's. such a cool but yet a sweet smile. hu3. the shape of his face, is like enrique. but enrique have a sharper feature what do you expect, he's a star, his is more subtle, a smoother complexion perhaps. but that was like back in 2004. but i have seen him in 2007 i guess, while my father are driving me back home and he take the short path near a stadium and there he was, jogging and wearing yellow shirt. i was like OMG! it has been ages! hahaha.

well, i do hope to see him again, so, to anyone who is now reading my post, people said that if you tell a wish it won't come true, but for me it's like you are wishing it on my behalf. huhuhu. it's not that i have a crush on him or what. just that i love his smile. i see corey when i saw him. haha. but then, they are a completely different person.

oh, another thing! about enrique. hehehe. i found out that whenever i heard his song, there is a part that i always think i is so0 sexy. (obviously because he is the one singging) for the song taking back my love, i love the part when he said 'my boys' hahaha

then in hero, i really really really love it when he said 'you can take my breath away' and for bailamos, i love the way he sing 'nothing can stop us tonight' okay, it's not the matter of wording. but i love the way he rhyme the word. hahaha.

d.r.e.a.m

2009-07-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

lately, for the past week, i've been dreaming about someone from my past. a friend of mine. i hate it. why must i dream about that person when the fact that, the person never came to cross my mind for the past few weeks? never to me, that i ever think about that person during the daytime. but i did in my dream...only in the land where i am never going to set foot.

was it just a dream, or could it be possibly more than it? if so it does, what does it mean? some people said that if we dream about something, or a person it means we are not destine to be with the person. but that is just a saying. if so it does, i'm not sure whether to be glad, or the otherwise. that person, came to me in this reality, as a part of chapters in my story. still a part of me want the person to go through the story with me, but the other part said the opposite.

i'm powerless to choose whoever to be a part of the character in my play. it was destined by God. everything happened for a reason. i wish i know this one. perhaps i did. it just that i didn't realise it before. now i did. now i know why we met, why we are set apart. why i fall, and the fact that now i can stand up.

you are the test, the obstacle, the hard path that i must go through. now i am here, i did go through. i'm not sure whether it's a success.

if your destiny lies in the path that won't collide with mine in the future, then so be it. it's not that i don't want you in my life. never did i wish for such thing to happen. it's just that i don't know what to wish for.

but, perhaps it just a dream. it means nothing. it means nothing. it means nothing.

or so i don't know.

strange, i know you are reading my post. it just that i'm not sure whether you'll get to read this one. and if so you get the chance to read this, deep down i know you know who i meant. because eventhough i said the time passed, and people changed and i did, but you know the truth beneath my lies. i know you still do. just like i said before, not today, not tomorrow but it is forever.

ape ini...???

2009-07-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

awak...bleyh dukung saye tak?? hahaha...amy gi timbang berat badan. patah lak tangan org nak dukung ko...wahhhh...!!! jahat gle. yela2 maybe aku patot diet kan...biar da ringan cam angin baru leh kan??? dulu aku salu mintak adik aku dukung aku 'weh, ko leh dukung kakak x? dukung yang macam orang kawen tu' adik aku cakap 'plotak la nak dukung kakak' huhuhu...alah, baru minx dukung. dulu kecik2 ayah salu dukung. =p kalo tertido kat atas lantai ayah angkat atas katil. ni da besa plak. tergeliat plak pinggang nak angkat nanty. sekarang kakak yang angkat adik2 plak. ceh, padahal nabila sorang je yang aku leh angkat. tapi Ala berat cam hippo. Ala paling besar kat sekolah. Ala paling tinggi jugak. hahaha...ni bukan blog Ala. ni blog kakak nanty Ala plak yang popular. hahaha...ble r orang nak dukung aku lagi mcm ayah dukung mase kecik2.??

awak...jangan lepas k?? penat la sorang2....Apis cakap malu jalan nak pegang tangan dengan kakak. b0do nye ko nih. ko tu adik aku ngok. bukan nye berchenta ngan ko plak. sepak kang. alamak...ngengade betol la ko nih. patotnye aku yang malu ngan ko. hahaha...aku xde abang. xde kakak jugak...so aku yang jadi cape crusader kanak2 yang bernama adik2 aku nih.....

ble plak aku nak ade cape crusader sendiri ye?? huhuhu...maybe aku patot hire bodyguard...tapi tu tak romantik...kakak xcharge korang pon jadi cape crusader. hahaha...ngat x kakak baling batu kat budak bodo yang ejek Apis dulu..?? ha...padan muke dye kan?

mak cakap my cape crusader....ha, 2nggu kakak kawen dulu. ape nih..??? Adik cakap 'ade ke orang nak kawen ngan ko tu...mungkin kalo de pon orang tu mesti sakit mental' kecik2 mulot da jahat....sepak kang. k la, nak mandy nih...xtaw la ape aku merepek tadi..dulu kecik2 aku bajet la kan...kumpol duit kunon2 nak beli gaun kembang2 nih. besa2 nih aku rase xkne plak imej aku pakai gaun. hahaha. Apis cakap ko tu xde upe pempuan pon. pempuan gila ade r...

ir0n rambot n sewaktu DEngannye

2009-07-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

hahaha....senanye aku xrase rambot straight sesuai ngan aku sbb mak cakap rambut kakak cam bulu jagong kecik2 botak je. mak tak taw ni anak pempuan ke laki. pakai baju ape pon xkne. weyh...sedeyh gler....balik cte straight2 rambot nih, aku prefer curl tapi dowang nak men straight2 rambot gne ir0n, join je le. lagipon sumbang rambot je. huhu...ceh, kunun2 pose la kat atas tu.
da lame gler x blogging. banyak senanye nak cte. ari tu idea bak mencurah2 ke ladang gand0m tapi....internet xley plak. hisyh! sekarang suda lupe plak...alasan2.nape xtuleys je kat memane. haaa...bak kate hasemah, yang tu kte xtaw...=p

the drama queen of dummies

2009-07-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

honestly, i don't know where should i start. ever met a bimbos before? i did. annoyingly she used to be a friend of mine who somehow shattered my one and only beating flesh.

sigh! it's funny when you talk about love all the picture that you get is him. what the f***?? where does a friend lies to you? love doesn't always has to be about him. trust me, you're just make a fool out of yourself.

i hate your smile,
i hate his,
i hate that the fact you only saw him,
when the truth only he knows what,
i hate him more than i hate you,
i hate that he broke your heart,
but then it's fixed,
because of love as you may said,
i hate that he exist,
i hate everything about him,
i hate the fact that you're my friend,
and it makes me love you,
but if it came to what i'm proud of,
is the fact that i hate you now,
more than you could ever imagine.

shit! what am i to you? nothing? i hate you. i always said that, when he break your heart a friend is always there to break his face. guest i never saw that you'll break my face too later .enough to say that i just hate you.

love means more than just hanging around your stupid boyfriend. it means family, friendship. it means when you cry, i'll cry too. i've heard a quote of 'a friend in need is a friend indeed' but never that i came across 'a boyfriend in need is a boyfriend indeed' guess you'll never see it.

macam bukan amy

2009-06-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

lately cam ade ketidak-seimbangan hormone emosi (istilah hormonal imbalance memang ade but, ntah la)

ari ni aku rase cam nak demam...memule sakit pewot. then rase kepenatan tahap melampau. then ala2 sakit pale plak. ngengade tol.

pagi nih aku moody, petang lak gelak cam haram. malam nih plak xde rase nak cakap ngan orang. pahal tah aku nih. mybe rind0o kat fatin x?? hahaha.

cepat la balik ye fatin.....

haaaa....ni fatin. amek ko bebes0 gambar aku upload. ske x??
p/s: kem salam kat widud =p

password2 =p

2009-06-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

memandangkan berlakunye 1 drama ketika aku nak cari buku kat libry pagi tadi, situasi tu bagi inspirasi kat aku untuk post menda nih (pst: bukan la dramatik mane pon ok) haa...kisahnye bermula dari zaman aku nak masuk matrik dulu....(flashback2)

mse nak wat bank punye card for the first time, aku dengan sangat bahagianye g la bank. akhirnye ade card sendiri tu...! macam bese la, kne ade pincode kan, ala2 password gitu. haa...dari sini la bermulanye drama password.

macam2 benda dalam idop kte yang gne password kan, contohnye nak bukak inbox message dalam tepon, laptop, diary bagai....certain orang gne password. cam aku, ermmm...system opac, kad2 bank aku, mespes (myspace), email, ym...haaa...2 sume aku gnekan password yang berbeda...ha, nak jadikan drama percume, aku nih bukan ingat sangat bende2 nih. contoh cam email aku, haaaa...aku gnekan name seseorang yang aku ske la perwatakan dye. majority aku gnekan orang laen as password aku. hahaha. orang yang korg xkan expect la kan, kalo x haram jadah aku nak ngaku kat blog nih.

eh, senanye aku nak cte menda laen. memandangkan aku xsimpan rekod bertulis pasal password aku nih, kerap kali la aku konpius ne 1 password untuk ni, itu. hahaha. jadi kadang2 sampai jamned computer libry tu diwatnye. hu3. kalo kuar duit tu memang memalukan la, cam aku ni pencuri plak nak kuarkan duit gne kad orang laen.

conclusionye...aku rase la, better kalo stick to 1 password yang orang taleh figure. sebab password2 ni agak bahaye la kalo orang taw.

posto2

2009-06-29T08:23:00.000+08:00

huwargghhh!
bangon pagi mengeliat dulu....hu3 ape tah yang aku nak post semalam. lupe la plak...=p semalam ngantok gler vavee plak. ape ntah aku wat. hehehe. oh ye, kepade fatin affiqah ramli hehe, churmel x kaler name ko nih? i missh u like gila (ni bukan realitinye). sebabnye: first, kalo group work nak present kat depan aku malas nak cakap...ble ko de ko la kne kan. mse ko xde farha buli kitowang...cewah, padahal miss thiya salu nampak cam farha yang kne. keh3. semalam nak wat persuassive language pny excercise farha xnak cakap kat depan. fatinnnn...tgk la farha ni. sob2...tapi dye kne gak. tapi, (ceh bnyk plak tapinye) dye cakap cket je. ummi da la ralik melukis xengat dunia sampai lupe ape yang suppose dye kne lukis. =p kalo nak senaraikan pe farha wat populer plak dye nanty kat page aku nih...wahahaha.
in conclusion, balik cepat kayh! i leb u!
pst: gmbr ko nty2 la aku upload. lgpon sume gambar xhot plak. hahaha. nak mandy gi kelas ni. =p

Babe. In. Total. Control of. Herself

2009-06-28T19:24:00.000+08:00

take the initial people...huhu. gle gaban je aku ni melontar ape yang terbuku d'aty ni kat blog. not exactly sume la aku write kan. something, certain things are not meant to be share plak...=p

anyway, i wanted to express something on the behalf of every pre-lawrian. perhaps we are not the best, neither the coolest . but we are what we are. everyone have their own weaknesses. so don't make yourself look dumb by insulting others when the fact that you have nothing against us.

wahahaha...when you ask me, i felt really grateful cause we pre-lawrians have a club of haters who blindly waste their time trying to get up-to-date with us because they have no life....ups! did i just slip that? nah...i mean it.

so for all the haters out there...if you think that we'll get influence by your words, you're f**king wrong. ni blog aku, ske aku la nak tulis pe. 1 je nak cakap, kalo nak debat issue ni, get ready la aku nak balas balik. jgn sentap suda.

when memories just died

2009-06-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

haaa, maybe ade yang akan ingat aku da wat grammatical error tapi tu title yang tepat kot. i don't know what to say actually, honestly. all i know is the pain penetrating deep within me. ntah le, layak ke aku cakap cam2? seriously mood aku xde ryte now.

why are some friends leaves...while others stay? ntah. aku salu ingtkan diri sendiri yang there are reasons why they did not make it to my future. but then again, was it enough to erase the pain i felt along the way?

emosi ke? xpe la, blog aku kan...ske aku la nak cakap pe pon. this is how i manage my emotions. have you ever wonder that, when you've met someone and they didn't stay in your life but they did in your friend's, you're just the path God has choosen to make them meet?? i did. almost everyday.

to my suprise i was actually right. funny. it is soo not me talking this. typing it out. i don't know what's got into me. haha. i love my friends. cause my life is dull, and my friends spread the colours all over it. it's sad to loose even one colour. cause we complete each other. no matter how bright the colour is, or striking until it hurts to see.

then again, perhaps it has to leave my shades, to complete others. leaving a dull space, an empty hole. like an incomplete puzzle. waiting for another pieces to match. or perhaps the dull part, what makes your life worth living.

they leave, you get hurt, and you become stronger. cause whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger remember? i know that, and it's hard to accept it eventhough. cause the truth always hurt.

i just have to accept it. either i leave your shades, or you leave mine. guess you make me leave. while all the while i've tried hard to stay. cause you mean the whole world to me. guess you never notice that. and it makes me hurt when i realize the fact that you never will.

still, i have to love what God has left me with. at least i have something, rather than nothing. i have peoples who love me. and people who'll leave me when the time comes but until that moment arrive, we'll stick together, love each other and treasure every moment spent together.

so, to that 'someone' i hope you'll find a nice colour. soo beautiful that you'll never wan't to leave it, and never want it to leave.

cilakerama hari ini

2009-06-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

ari ini dalam sejarah, aku kuar menonog je tanpa berfikir hala tujuan. he3. kul 10pg lg kami suda kuar dari perkarangan uitm terchenta. =p fuyooo, banyak je parents adek2 junior datang menghantar anak2 mereka yang bakal menerjah ke alam kehidupan sebagai siswa dan siswi. cewah!

hi adik2 sume, akak senior korunk!
hehe, enough2. berbalik pada tujuan sebenar aku type nih. aku, luq and ikwan g la sewa kereta kat semarak. nak nek kete pe ye? pape je la, aku xkesa. tapi persoalan tu bertubi2 diajukan. amek je kete pape leh tak, jangan bazir mase. hahaha. at last ktowg sewa le kete auto. kelisa warne ala2 cream tapi pekat.

ntah la xtaw ape kalernye. maybe aku patot bawak yang skin kaler determiner garnier punye tuh. hehehe. xpe la, da nek keta isi minyak bagai pon xdecide lagi nak gi mane. ape nih?? pening pale aku. mle2 aku nak tgk wayang, tapi aku xske cte transfomer. memandangkan cte tu je yang dok tayang sekarang, malas aku nak tengok. ramai sgt plak tu. so, ikhwan ajak le gi seberang prai. betol ke aku eja nih??

aku xtaw nape aku wat blog sedangkan aku malas tahap cipan nak menulis ni. aku cte isi2 penting je bleyh kan?? sebab da ngantok la sangat nih....

nak taw, mase kre2 budget, leh plak aku lupe kire tol sekali. aduyai. pe la aku nih. hehe. mle2 plan nak g sunway carnival mall kat c2. tapi terlepas lak junctionye! terpakse la men redah je mane2 sempat. so, nak jadi dramatik, ktowg tersesat. =p tapi tu normal kan? wait till u see this. ade accident plak kat jalan yang ktowg lalu tu. haaa...ni dramatik x?? tapi naseb baek la xlame stuck. kejap je sebab ikhwan cilok kat jalan yang suppose xle lalu. hehehe.

at last jumpe la jgk mall nye....yeah2. da la lapo aku nih. dengan hati yang gumbira ktowg pon terjah mall tu. xde shopping pon. sesaje tgk2. =p gler jejauh datang nak tengok2 je?? hahaha. nak lagi dramatik? pas abes meronda mall tu, ngn harapan menggunung nak g makan, kete xleh start. what the f***??

naseb la de sowg abg ni help ktowg. thankz abg, i leb u! hu3. trus xbrani berhenti kete lg, ktowg just makan kat mek dee (McD) pny drive through. haha. mkn dlm kete je la senang. balik pon memule salah jalan gak. hehe. tp berjaya gak balik uitm. kalo x aku x type la blog ni skrg. =p

ni la tempat kete xle start...hampas betol gambar cilakerama ni pon xbanyak...^^

aku xtaw nak panggil ape

2009-06-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

kerana mulut, badan binasa, kerana budak nih, seluruh asrama terseksa.
notes untuk pemilik foto nih....sila la gnekan otak ye, nak pakai camni takat dalam asrama xpe gak, jangan over sampai luar.
keep your mini2 stuff at home kalo xtaw batas nak pakai had mane kat asrama nih.

mengarut je part 1

2009-06-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

some says that staying, is strong. but i say leaving is stronger. ntah nape je aku menagrut nih xtaw la. kenape ye? whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. kepada lela and tokyo yang sangat la menggemari hobi komen-mengumen blog aku nih. aku x jiwang ea. aku just type, jari ni gerak sendiri aku bace je pe dye type (alasan bodo...hahaha)

chenta? klaka plak aku dengar perkataan tu. nape ea? maybe aku xpenah rase kan, so aku anggap ni crap. kne kat batang idung aku baru padan mke (choi! xmo2...kate ice-queen)

alah...penah je aku nges cam bodo dulu. atas name chenta yang senanye aku sendiri xsure wujud x untuk aku (sumpah malu type nih, tapi memandangkan urat malu da putos, aku pon teruskan type)

nak taw, de la mereka2 yang berpendapat true love is when you shed a tear, and still want him, it's when he ignore you but you still love him, when he loves another and you would say "i'm happy when you're happy" but yet, all you do is cry

peh, aku xtaw la nak describe ape tu. blind? please la, bazir air mata je. kesian la kat diri sendiri weyh... (gle jahat mulut aku) i used to believe it. so, i've went through and i believe i deserve the right to talk about it. sumpah ble ingat balik terase cam xde otak plak. hahaha

aku po xtaw pe je yang aku nak sampaikan senanye. go with the flow je la nampaknye. ape lagi ea? oh, ntah la ble kwn2 aku tny knp x couple or knp xde minat sesape. aku just nak cakap "i don't deserve to get hurt again" (cewah, cam skema jawapan la plak) emosi minah nih. maluu siot!

kadang2 cean aku tgk mereka2 nih...separuh mati la ske kat someone, or love as they said i don't know tapi orang tu xhargai pon. ok2 fine, agak xfair jgk aku cakap nih. perasaan ne leh dipakse. tapi akal boleh fikir. lebeyh baek la kte hargai orang yang sayangkan kte daripade kte yang terhegeh2 nak kat orang tu. bazir mase, duit n air mate.

learn from mistakes...sesetengah orang lembut aty sgt ke..?? puhleeezzz....tu, aku xnak la tulis panggil ape kn. melampau plak nanty. hu3. apahal plak ngan aku mlm nih?

=p

2009-06-26T19:29:00.000+08:00

bagun pagi2 td senanye aku xde la plan pape 4 today. tapi memandangkan aku terdengar kekecohan issue nak g umah nazrul, wat aku berfikir....pewot da berbunyi. grrrr...lapar2.

aku xfikir lame trus mandi n siap2 nak ikot. hehehehe. padahal semalam cakap xnak ikot. tapi kesian plak kan mak dye da siap2 kan mcm2 orang xdatang plak (ceh, padahal da lapar) =p
and ne la taw jiran2 nazrul or adik-bradik dye ade je yg hot2 bley cuci mate (gatal2, tapi ni bkn aku la...hahaha) malas nak cte pe kesah sepenuhnye, aku cte point2 penting je la.

dlm kete yang aku naek, ermmm xle nak ckp la kan sape yang drive kanak2 di dalamnye mula wat cilakerama.
wajah2 kebuluran

pemandu ni plak cam gle, nak belumba ngan kete yang fatin drive. aku cakap 'memang ko bwk anak kucing sume ni, kitorang memang ade 9 nyawe pon'

kat traffic light maen hon. mcm retarded betol. naseb la xde polis. kalo x memang aku suro diorang yang bayar saman. memang elaun kite sume sangat banyak kan....kalo kne saman tiap2 kali kuar pon xpe agaknye.

sampai kat umah nazrul, ktorang mcm xmakan sebulan plak. hahaha. cewah, hiperbola sgt plak.

ade bnyk durian kat umah dye. huhuhu. ni musim buah ea? aku xtaw. tapi aku xmakan durian. then nazrul bagi aku pe tah. pulut kot namenye. banyak gler...aku xpenah makan. so aku share ngn has. ermmm....dye ade ngan kuah ape tah namenye. tp buat dari durian la (ceh ngengade, ni makan lak)

memang culture shock la pewot pepagi dah makan mcm ni. tapi memandang kan free, hanye perlu bayar duit menyak and dapat lihat kawasan2 yang aku xpenah lihat, so ok la. xkesa la culture shock pon pewot nih.

nak upload gmbr2 kat sane, xde kat aku plak skunk. esok2 la ye. huu3. nyway, thankz kuwarge nazrul ^^

untuk gurl kat luar sane

2009-06-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

find a guy who calls you beautiful,
instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hung up on him,
who will lie down under the stars just to listen to your heart beat,
or will stay awake just to watch you while you're asleep,
wait for the boy,
who wants to show you off to the whole world when you're in sweat,
and still be proud of it,
who will holds your hands in front of his friends,
he would say you're more,
when the fact that you're having less,
who thinks you're pretty without having make-up,
the one who constantly reminds you,
that he care,
and how lucky he is to have you,
the one who turns to his friends and says "that's her"

ape patot jadi title nye...??

2009-06-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

ntah la ape malang aku ari nih...waaaa. sedeyh gler nih. pagi2 da kne bahan ngan mereka2 mase masok lecture libry.
then gi makan ngan nba.
fine2 memang aku stock orang2 untuk dibahan je ari nih.
memang la. memang aku ske plak.
memang aku datang uitm ni nak kne bahan.
thankz la.
berdenyut je plotak aku nih.
cewah, melampau plak bunyi nye. =p
pas kelas libry, aku dengan minda yang tertipu dan xpenah fokus dalam kelas pon bertanye kepade farha.
"bel pasni katne?"
dye dengan gumbiranye jawab mane ade kelas bel.
next week la.
argggghhhhh!
kalow aku taw aku x pakai baju kurung weyhhh!!
malu siot kne bahan.
ceh, camla aku xpenah pakai b4 this.
waaaaaa.....!!!!
fine2, trima kenyataan.
on the way g f0od court, abila dan fatin nyanyi2.
sakit gegendang telinga aku.
hahaha...jgn marah ye.
kate family...=p
kat fc, kanak2 nba ni plak bahan aku.
memang la aku ske sgt2 dengar kate2 mereka nih.
aku cam da xtaw la nak watpe bagi makcik2 ni diam sebentar.
dorg bahan aku pe, tu rahsia la cuz kalo aku tulis sumpah malu.
bak kate lela "kalo aku, aku bunuh diri je terus"
memang la nasihat yang paling berkesan kan...
heaven ye korang bahan aku.
2nggu la turn aku plak...
petang plak ade fogging.
bukan semalam ke patotnye??
aiyoo, pakcik, semalam ape jadi???
penat saye 2nggu. ngengade, 2nggu pon penat ke??
kemuncaknye, sementara menunggu, ade orang tercakar aku.
sakitnye...!!! (TT)
senanye nak ngadu tu je...aku xle berfikir sekarang.
mardiyah memekak cam sawan.
"fogging2"
"cube call, cube call"
"weh aku beransur dulu la, aku nak layan laki aku lagi"
then mar sedang gadoh ngan has sekarang.
issue ape tah yang hangat sangat.
daaa....fatin da join.
abes la, dorang nak men gitar...
tooolooongggg!
aku sakit pale weyh...
"ayu sleeping, ayu sleeping"
has ngan dafi nyanyi...

bodo ape je

2009-06-24T18:34:00.000+08:00

i'm not suppose to love you

i'm not suppose to care

i'm not suppose to live my life

and wishing that you would be there

i'm not suppose to wonder where you are

or what you do

but most of all that i shouldn't do

is to love you more than i should do

sedeyh banget ni

2009-06-24T18:25:00.001+08:00

waaaaa....dafi men gitar memekak nyanyi lagu2 yang menusuk jiwa aku.

has plak jadi interpretor...aduyai. ini satu penghinaan.

=p nak je aku hempok laki dafi 2 (gitar dye) naseb baek la kasih sayang mengatasi segalanye...cewah.

sayang dafi ok??

fatin nyanyi lagu2 yang perli2 aku. waaaa...nak cabot braces fatin nih...!!!

kepade cik mardiyah...get up and ikot mereka makan di luar.

xnak.!!!!!

2009-06-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

T.I.D.A.K T.A.H.U

2009-06-24T18:03:00.000+08:00

i don't know everything yet i know something...but i don't want to be part of it anymore

t0ken of my appreciation

2009-06-24T08:28:00.000+08:00

waaa....bangun lambat. ape tah aku wat penat sangat semalam....actually there is something that i need to post here yesterday but due to being exhausted, so i postponed it till today. haha...

nevermind...so i have this friends of mine. he's soo0 sweet. really. though i have my own clique but he's something different. a true friend. he's there whenever i needed him the most. s0, i'm here today to say thank you for everything.

thank you ikhwan

pst...adik2 sume, abang ni single lagi baek plak 2 cepat2 hu3 ^^

nba the clique

2009-06-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

kami xjadi separate...and kepade mereka yang salah tanggapan terhadap nBa, keje kitorang bukan mengumpat orang kayh...

betol ke aku ni ice-queen??

2009-06-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

survey nih....

belanjawan sem ini

2009-06-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

aku xtaw la bile nak dapat elaun nih....waaa....sambil menanti dengan kesabaran yang makin pudar, aku pon wat list benda2 yang aku nak beli:-

jam tangan casio cam yang previously.tapi nak design laen. dulu orang bagi meyh...tapi chumey je.
eclipse (ni bukan gula2 plak, ni adik-bradik novel twilight. ari tu nak beli da abes stock) yang laen dah ade.
kaso0t...yang lame da rosak plak.
suar sukan...baru aku pasan suar aku pakai slame ni over-sized. (pasni beli kne tengok betol2)

haaa...itulah angan2 aku. elaun oh elaun...(T.T) unless ade yang nak bagi untok up-coming besday aku elok jugak tu. hahahaha

whatever it is, i still love u guys..!

2009-06-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

bru je balik dari food court nih....gi food court tapi tak makan. lapaaa....waaa. kne ulser, sakitnye ble makan. huhu...anyway, ari nih cam penat la. smlm tido lambat. (minta perhatian ye, bagi orang yang ske tdo, kurang dari 6 jam consider xckup. hehe)

longest day perhaps. pagi2 da bangun nak basuh baju. haa...tengok, smlm da cakap nak wat kan. =p

anyway, hal2 berkenaan nBa da selesai. honestly, aku sendiri xnak nBa pecah-belah. hopefully pasni kitorang akan lebih matang la nak selesaikan prob2.

aku senanye bangge ade korang. fine, i was being egoistic when i didn't want to admit it at first. tapi sekarang cakap la thank you aku turunkan ego (fatin n farha cakap tadi hahaha)

aku nye quote dlu " kalo pasu la retak, even bole gam balik, still nampak kesan retaknye"
memang la betul. but, at least the vast won't stay broken. so conclusionye, pape pon hal yang terjadi, still ade care nak selesaikan.

kre retakan tu boleh consider as the mark of history la. =p
sorry ea korang. but i love you guys - farha einstein, fatin hot and sexy (sekarang aku nak rampas title ni plak), lela penakot, umi pending, tokyo cengeng, abila ali imran wide coverage.

thanks la dafi sebab caring walaupon ko kutok2 aku jugak. tapi aku taw ko syg aku kan..?? kan??

and thanks to ikhwan yang sgt baek, ade je bile aku tgh marah2 and sedeyh. kesian plak kat dye.

anyway, tarik balik surat resign aku. bak kate lela, nanti xpopular plak. hahaha. lela yang cakap, bukan aku. abila plak salu ngat popular because of her. xleh blah.

ni aku xengat sape tag

2009-06-22T19:43:00.000+08:00

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah:
urmmmm....ntah la. ade ke??

2. Saya sedang mendengar:
fatin dan dafi membebel...mereka kate: sidai kaen pakai tudung. maybe sebab pempuan buduh yang separoh telanjang tu pny pasal bdk tu kne pakai tudung mase sidai kaen cean.

3. Mungkin saya patut:
lempang je pempuan tu

4. Saya suka:
tido

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya:
chaba, chomel hahahaha...xle. mereka je yang taw sape

6.Saya tak paham:
ape fatin tengah cakap sekarang

7.Saya kehilangan:
chaba selama seminggu...xpayah datang balik pun xpe.

8.Ramai yang berkata:
amelia ni keras aty, keras pale...ceh, xtaw ke tengkorak memang keras ngok! aty kat dalam plak so, aku xtaw la keras tak

9.Makna nama saya:
amelia~ ayah kate xtaw...ape ayah ni. men rempit je letak name. hahaha. dlm greek mksdnye gigih berusaha. tipu je mksud tu. aku malas je.

10.Cinta itu adalah:
ntah. aku xtaw plak. cikgu xajar plak. tapi fatin kate chenta itu buta. kalo buta camne nak f*** dafi lak kate rabe suda...

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang:
mengexplain kan kepada aku ape itu chenta. tapi aku xdengar pon. actually malas nak type. panjang dye cakap.

12.Saya akan cuba:
cabot braces fatin!!! hahaha

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud:
nothing last ok....

14.Telefon bimbit saya:
fatin cakap dye punye rosak...tapi ni aku pny blog, sebok je fatin nih. tepon aku atas katil. xtaw model pe.

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur:
alah...mimpi tadi best la....nak smbg balik

16.Saya paling meluat:
ni kalow nak list down banyak nih. larat ke nak bace

17.Pesta/Parti adalah:
yang tu kne control la...hahaha. mcm di bwh pengaruh alkohol nanti.

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah:
kalo orang tu saye panggil binatang leh kire x..?? tapi dye x cute.

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah:
ntah la...sume cam buhsan je

20.Hari ini:
sgt meletihkan. tido cam ape je tadi

21.Malam ini saya akan:
kemas barang2 saye. ceh malas plak...

22.Esok pula saya akan:
basuh baju...nih seyez nak wat

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan:
seorang cape crusader untk saye...hahaha. plz2

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini:
omg! seminggu aku xcuci muka cam pempuan gila dah muke nih...

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan: depends la...

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun:
barat...he2. aku xmakan ikan. mostly makanan jepon de ikan

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap:
terang la...mane nampak kalo gelap. hahaha. dafi kate aku lucah. sampai aty. 28.Makanan segera adalah: senang dimakan

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
ntah ape yang aku cakap tadi ngn dorg. x ingat plak...

30.Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
sesape la yang terase nak kne tag

to my ex~nBa

2009-06-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

actually aku syg gler kat korang...maybe aku xrety nak tunjuk, or behave towards it in a right way but still aku syg gler kat korg. aku benci gler kalo org luar sebok2 hal kte. that's why aku melenting kadang2 ble ade org2 luar cmpor tangan hal kte. seyez aku maksudkan ble aku ckp 'i got ur back'.

maybe aku bias ble ade problem antare kte. but lawyers is either black or white. like it or not i have my perspective. i have my side. walaupun aku xpenah plan nak futher into law senanye. cwh!

1 week aku xde, aku da pk pasal hal nih. and, aku rase korg sume perhaps x perlukan kehadiran aku. so, officially aku tarik diri dari clique nih. and, for those yang rase aku ni ice-queen, xde heart feelings lansung, nih aku turunkan ego aku nak wat public appologies untuk sume nba.

sorry sgt2 aku burukkan keadaan n xmemahami. memang betol aku xbagi korg 'audi alteram partem' at first. but aku pun xdapat peluang tu jgk. so, i think we're even. aku anggp sume yang aku post adalah mark of history. so, sorry jgk aku xplan nak padam. maybe one day ble korg da lupe that i was once a part of you guys, only then you can look back at the mark of history. sorry.

miSsing mErb0k =p

2009-06-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

bwu kejap aku da rind0o

waaaa....

this is conspiracy...

2009-06-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

first of all aku nak sume orang taw bahawa idea untuk title blog kali ini di'provide' oleh fatin pL2c. sayang kamo0 sgt2.

secondly, i don't give a shit about what others will think about me when i write this blog. if you thing that i'm using this medium to express my emotion, that's exactly what i'm doing right now. i don't care if you'll say its sucks.

here is the case that i would looovee to share. what does the word 'family' means to you?? let me guess. of course it's subjective and differ from each and every one of us.

but here is an unique answer from someone i consider my second family in this uitm of merbok. "it means having conspiracy that'll bring downfall to other family member and face-saving"

what a unique defination, congratulation...!!!

here is some part of the dialogue

si dye ni: fatin xpayah fikir dah, benda dah settle....

translation (bende dah settle for my side only not yours and the other)

bayangkan, kate satu family tapi pergi settle kan belakang kitorang. kate melibatkan the whole family tapi why x ajak kitorang gi settle kan sekali. and the most unbearable part nye adalah 'kami' xsalah. please note that you and sorang lagi tu bukan a part of 'kami'. in other words, aku dan si a senanye memang xterlibat dalam hal ni.

kesiannye si b mungkin terlibat tapi at least dye xlah wat pakatan rahsia face-saving cam sesetengah pihak tu. xsangke plak defination 'family' includes 'pointing finger to other family member'.

si dye ni: ni sume jadi sebab kte sebok2 sangat nak amek taw hal satu same laen.

translation(ni sume jadi sebab aku nak lepaskan diri aku n sorang lagi tu. and sorg lagi tu plak tipu mamat ni cakap kte sume perangai teruk)

habis ko tu memang bukan busy-body ke??

bravo..!!! maybe you should include that in the new oxford dictionary!! what an asshole. i was just trying to help you. i always said i got your back because i mean it. i wasn't just a saying. i came from deep down. guess it is too deep for the family huh? guess it wasn't even necessary for you cause you've found an easier solution. face-saving.

i'm not trying to give the impression that i'm innocent. yes, i am guilty. guilty of trying to defend my 'family' when all the while they are back-stabbing me and si a and si b. thank you. i don't care if people think that i'm such a spoilt trying to gain symphaty from other. i really don't. and i'm not. i have the one and only suppoters that'll stick with me through out the years. myself.

scenari0 of the day...!

2009-06-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

kepenatan...xtaw nak describe camne lagi. assgment ade lg blum siap, baju belum kemas. esok da nak balik kL. what to d0..?? badan suda penat nih...huhuhu. boleh x baju2 tu kemas diri sendiri. berdikari sikit...

hari ini tak taw la sume cam xkne je. aku nak jadi cengeng, bak kate dafi sepanjang ari. perot da sakit cam haram ditambah pula dengan 'cilakerama' beberape pihak yang menganggap aku bersalah atas certain2 hal yang honestly, aku pon xtaw ape dye. sorry to say but, i have the right to defend myself. memang aku xtaw plak. yang sakitnye aty, aku at first nak settle kan pekare ni. tapi setelah aku dapat taw ade pihak2 tertentu yang membuat pakatan rahsia kat belakang aku terus xde m0od nak settle kan.

lantak la. tak mati pon kalo korg satu asrama ke menyampah kat aku. bukan korang yang bagi aku makan plak. kesah ape aku. nasihat aku kat seseorang yang aku anggap cam adik sendiri ni plak, tolong la jgn nak lepas diri sendiri dengan meletakkan beban salah ko kat orang laen.

have respect to others. i was just trying to help you. guess you took it too far. bukan dengan cara tarnish name aku or orang laen pilihan yang baik ye. xtaw la nak cakap pe. right now, i hate you from the bottom of my soul. sudah la dengan 'cilakerama' korang yang useless tu.

aku da rase bosan plak try nak pertahankan pandangan orang pd clique kte ni. guess i don't care anymore. lame2 aku rase betol jgk ape orang cakap selame ni.

ntah la, pedih plak aty aku ble korg wat aku camni. aku taw la tak teruk mane situation aku berbanding kanak2 kat somalia yang susah nak dpt makan 2.

mle2 aku sayang kat korang. aku rase aku patot bagi chance untk diri aku sayang kawan2 aku. aku xkesa sgt ble aku breakup dulu. at least aku still ade kawan2 aku. boyfriend 2 bukan la sehebat kawan2 aku, setia cam kawan2 aku. tapi ble korang da wat camni, ntah la ape perseption aku. rase lagi sakit aty ble korang wat camni.

wat mase ni aku xnak la dengar pape explaination. tu pon if korang penah terniat nak bagi. untuk orang tu, yang cakap aku tipu dye tu, aku nak bagi taw 1 pkre. aku bukan budak2 tadika yang xtaw nak menipu. nak bndgkan dengan korang, aku lg hebat bab2 menipu ni. jarang la aku nak bagi kantoi. if aku bagi tu means memang bukan niat aku nak menipu pon.

up to you la nak nilai aku camne sekarang. yang penting aku da x kesa ngan ko. bye!

pLan B mangSa si daFi

2009-06-13T17:38:00.000+08:00

memandangkan has wanita yang berjaya merangkul gelaran pemain game rogol2 terbaik pre-law da membuka pintu untuk mereka2 di luar sana mengetahui plan2 yang bakal dijalankan keatas seorang teman ktorang, aku dengan rela hatinye present kat public plan b sebagai backup plan a sekiranye tidak berjaya menundukkan kesengalan dafi. mereka2 yang terlibat bakal menyaksikan perperang terhebat di masria.

plan B:

kalo dah sign aggreement pon x reti2 jgk nak nyesal, setiap kali pas dye mandy aku 2nggu dye. taw la naseb seterusnye.
merakam segala kejadian2 aneh yang bakal menimpa dafi.
plan nie akan berterusan selagi xde arahan untk stop drpd pihak atasan.
memandangkan dye dengan banggenye melanggar perjanjian pertame, maka dengan ini sesungguhnye (ayat has) tiade perjanjian kedua.
menjadikan chaba sebagai teman setia dafi selama mana yang chaba nak.

geLora jiWa diseBabkan Dafi..!!!

2009-06-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

pagi2 bagun pagi...gosok gigi xyah mandi. wait, bukan la perangai aku x mandy pagi kan but ari nie nak g maen bminton ngan ikhwan n luq. ^^

masing2 dengan c0rak permainan tersendiri tampil la mencurahkan yang ter'hidden'. tangan aku da bengkak sebab maen bminton n wrestling ngan fatin semalam. guling2 cam haram depan adk2 junior. urat malu da mmg lame putus, peduli haram aku orang nak tengok pon. tapi masih nak cover macho depan mereka, dengan meyakinkan diri sendiri yang xsakit senanye. (eg0 minah ni) has cakap pemain 'profesial'

ala has, ko pon 'profesial' gak. dengan corak permainan yang pemalas thp brahmin 2, yang maen sond0l2 shuttle 2. tahniah la.

pas bermaen dengan gumbira dan xsedar dirinye, nazrul yang tibe2 muncul dalam cerita ni ajak g makan bfast. dye blanje ^^ yeeeaaaa...!!!!! mmg perfect timing la. elaun tah bile tah nak kuar. elaun oh elaun...bergelora jiwa aku tunggu.

semasa makan, nazrul tetibe membuka topic yang menusuk kalbu ini.

ea, korang bdk2 pempuan maen game rogol2 tu camne? (sambil gelak) aku bace kat blog dafi. naseb xtersembor kat muke dye air aku. mse tu, aku xtaw la nak sorok muke ni katne. hanya 1 ayat yang mampu terucap siap ko pasni dafiii..!!!! gelora sangat dah ni.

maaallluuu....naseb dalam blog tu name has yang naek sebagai perogol terbaik. kalo name aku la, botak dafi aku kejekan.

agak lame r aku lepak ngan nazrul, ikhwan n luq. dari kul 8 pagi, smpai la 12 smthng. pas breakfast maen game truth or dare lak. agk banyak la yang aku taw ari ni. hehehe...tapi xley cakap. mereka suro senyap.

huaaa...balik my r0om aku ngadu kepade has, wanita yang berjaya merangkul gelaran pemain terbaik game rogol2 ni. dye mengilai la ble dengar berita aku xtaw nak define ape bagi dye. yang penting aku taw dye da wat plan nak kejekan dafi.

dafi wat senandung kaseh lak, mintak simpati mungkin. tapi xberkesan bak kate has. sekarang dafi nyanyi lagu thai plak. berd0a la dafi selamat daripade dirogol berkali2 oleh pemain terbaek. has da wat plan a. pasnie plan b aku pny keje. serang dafiiii!!!!

s0mething for all of us

2009-06-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure where i get the idea to talk about this. what am i expecting out of this but at least i know i'm doing it for someone that i care. ever heard the truth hurt? though not generally, still it happens. she just found out that her ex-bf cheated on her, acting from the very begining. watching her like that, broken yet invisible, i think i can hear her one and only beating flesh shattered. well, at least she finally have her grip on the one thing everyone are running away from when it comes to love. the painful truth. that he are just using you. this is not a discrimination essay from me, its more to self-reliance. it is not fair to see something from just one angle. guys and gils are indeed the same. not all of them are not trustworthy. the question is, how many of them are?? i don't want about to get emotionally-deep but i am mad for things happened. i was wondering, what did he get out of it? fun? how is that? he need cost to make moves, call her, messages her. that definately needs money. suprise to know that some people don't bother watching their money to flow like water for non-visible purpose. i rather spend it on something i can see. like stuff. what did he get from all the lies..?? again, is it fun? he didnt even get payment for that. talking about my defination of fun. no benefit at all. i mean, imagine saying that you love a person without even mean it...?? hell yes i can do the same. what did i get..?? headache. i'm not saying that i don't lie and that i am somekind of angel-behaviorial-girl, the point is, i prefer to be called egoistic. i don't compliment people not even deep down i know they are worth it. in other words, at least mine was keeping the word to myself rather than lying. hell i hate what he had done. of couse i deserved to say so cause i've been in her shoes before. which is stupid and embarassing. but i don't really care. all that i'm wishing and hoping right now is that he'll suffer. more than what he gave others. natures law has debt. mind that people. it is not supersticious. its the fact, the truth. and for those out there who got played by some moron, i suggest stand up and give them hell. they'll never stop unless we take action. and for that person who messed up with people that i love, trust me i know the law and i'm not afraid to use it.

jgn jd 'streamyx'

2009-06-12T17:07:00.000+08:00

semalam ade la orang tu kol aku tetengah malam. 'amy, ape nak wat ni? *** marah kat aku pasal kes ari tu' nak sangat aku mention ape la halnye tapi nanty aku lak yang kne sembor ngan mamat tu. da la bersepah je rakan2 dye yang kuat mengadu tu. lagi pon memalukan jgk halnye. jadi the best solution is dont mention it. masalahnye ade la seseorang yang agak terlebih concern pasal issue ni, dengan baek hatinye g tanye kat ***, at first, aku xla amek kesah sangat kan. nak tanye go ahead la tapi jgn over2. xtaw la ape kwn aku yang sorg ni fikir sampai g post kat public...erm, i think bleh consider public jgk la. ble bdk tu taw orang cakap bout him, *** kecik aty la. skrg mula la perang agak dingin antara mereka2 yang terlibat menyebarkan hal ini. sume tunding jari sesame sendiri. from my point of view, i think everyone involved should take equal responsibilities...yela, memang start daripada 1 pihak je. lame2 tersebar. sape suro g wat forum pasal hal tu kan?? aku agak pity la kat *** memang bukan salah *** senanye. tapi ble orang da taw, galak plak cerita. bukan hot story pon. sia2 je jadi issue bertegang urat. please lah. banyak kot hal2 x berbaloi terjadi sebab ade pihak jadi 'streamyx' ni. 'streamyx' ni definisi untok mereka2 yang terlebih concern pasal hal sekitar mereka. ade jgk la team2 'streamyx' tulis pasal aku, xde la aku amek kesa sgt. sebab aku malas. lagipon, as long as dye x menyentoh issue2 sensitif aku, xde la aku nak melenting kan. everything has its own risk. nak wat camne, berdepan la ngan anger mamat tu yang aku xtaw la bile nak reda.

life has begun duh!

2009-06-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

while some people might think that life in Uni is stressful, these chicks make it a hit for me..!!!

thankz for being a part of my story. although some part are quite blurry, still it is memory. nie my 1st post. newbie lagi. hope it'll become more interesting soon. really2 soon. mse nak wat blog ni je dah payah gler. i'm not sure why i can't use my email add so, i created a new one. just for this purpose...duh! since banyak free time lately, and i have nothing to do, perhaps sharing something with the public is a good decission. ok la, bkn banyak benda pun leh share. my life has it upside down, macam orang laen jgk but, it didn't hit the very peak of it. or even the bottom.